I know my life is at a turning point, but sometimes I look around and I don’t know which way to turn… The time is coming up soon, where I’m going to step onto that plane and head into what is unknown to me. I don’t know what to expect or how to prepare myself for what is coming.
In short I feel as though I don’t know anything, I don’t know what I’m going to be doing exactly (except that my time is going to involve missions and photography), I don’t know how many people are on my team, I don’t even know what time I’m getting picked up at the airport.
To keep myself sane I’ve started the packing process. I’ve created a pile in my room with everything (that I don’t need right now) that needs to go into my luggage. Then there’s the carry-on pile/bag that is beginning to overflow my senses. When I walk into my room I feel overwhelmed, then when I walk out I start thinking about everything else I need to get together. I’m starting to pull my hair out. I’m excited, nervous, a little scared, anxious that I don’t know what to expect, and sad that I’m leaving everything/everyone that I know here. All I can do is hope and pray. Asking God to give me his peace and presence of mind. And that by his strength I’ll be able to step onto that plane in two weeks and fly away from what I know.